Nursing is not always holding a patient’s hand at the bedside or listening to a family member grieve or welcoming uncomplicated, new life or being a knowledgeable and present professional in times of crisis. No, there are some not-so-inspirational nursing and healthcare moments rarely discussed in print.
Writing is vulnerability in print. It’s realization. Even as I work to be honest and open, you only see and read portions that I allow you access.
At the moment, I’m broken-spirited. I’m angry. I’m hurt. I’m confused. I’m shocked. I’m disappointed. I’m a whole range of emotions I don’t think are necessary.
I’m experiencing one of those paradigm-shifting circumstances. I can only think of one other time in my career in which I’ve felt like this, realizing my views (about many healthcare issues) are, indeed, morphing.
There are really so many things I could write about at this moment, but I’m not going to do so. At least not for an audience.
My self-induced censorship is purposeful but transparent. As much as censorship can be.
Are there any other writers that live this conundrum?
Courtney Rokstad
May 29, 2013 10:22 amYes! What happened?? If you want to talk, I censored, nurse to nurse, Courtney.rokstad@gmail.com
Have you read the book “A Good Day In Hell: The Flatlining of Nurses Across America”?
It will change your life 🙂
http://www.amazon.com/gp/aw/d/1604771720/ref=mw_dp_img?is=l
Courtney Rokstad
May 29, 2013 11:01 am*uncensored 🙂
jparadisirn
May 29, 2013 3:03 pmOuch, sounds bad. Letting yourself feel it will bring the insight, and the way to handle it in writing. Just remember, it’s all material you will find use for. I’m here if you need a friend.
Nursetopia
May 29, 2013 9:37 pmThanks, Everyone!
Carol
May 30, 2013 10:22 amI agree with the above…I never feel like I truly understand my feelings until I put them into writing.
Turning points are not necessarily a bad thing.
Sounds like you have a lot of support. Count me into that too! 🙂
Sean
June 4, 2013 7:33 pmOK.
I missed the boat on this one. What happened that you need to censor your writing?
Phyllis
June 8, 2013 3:53 pmNo matter how you feel, know that there are an unlimited amount of people who appreciate what you do as a nurse. Barco’s Nightingales Foundation salutes and pays honor to nurses like yourself. You are the advocate of patients as you bring your courageous heart to work each day, and we give you a very well deserved standing ovation. Barco’s Nightingales Foundation is dedicated to honoring the spirit of women and men who choose nursing by focusing our philanthropic efforts on helping to mend the lives of children and their families. If you so wish, we invite you to join us as we continue to celebrate all nurses and the profession of nursing at http://facebook.com/BarcosNightingalesFoundation.